I’m so hungry right now.  I just wanted to jot something down before I forget.  When meds are in full force, I can think straight, I’m motivated… sometimes, I’m a genius.  It reminds me of when I was little.  The thing that worries me is that little things catch my eye (”Oohh a birdie!”) and I’ll just start riding off on that horse.  I’ll forget what I was doing before and have to backtrack what I was doing.  This occasionally gets out of hand at work and I have to real back in and cap what I am doing.
What does this mean?  It usually happens best after a med change, increase, or otherwise.  Are hyper ADHD like symptoms temporary side effects that wear off, leaving the main modulatory effects to persist?  I’d like to think I have ADHD because the medicine helps so much.  Like, it’s night and day what it does to my motivation to get things done, and my sleep schedule.  But I get so frustrated because, let’s say that the meds are correcting the physiological aspects of ADHD.  Even so, I then have to fix my life - organize it.  Organizing is so tough to do when you are a perfectionist - and when you are passionate about a lot of different things.

I dunno if I feel any better, but I think that somehow adequately describes the dilemma I always face when dealing with whatever it is that makes my mind unique.